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As I said in Personal and Planetary Evolution, it seems that the game plan at the moment is for us to come out of our limited consciousness, where we aren't aware of our connection to the Godforce and to remember that we are totally connected to the Source of All, thus finding true bliss. But how? Talking of personal and planetary evolution, I mentioned that only the NOW is important, where decisions are made and our true power IS. And if I can think of one major way to get from A to B (see Personal and Planetary Evolution), then remaining centred in yourself in the Eternal Now is probably the best key.

"Yeah right, that's practical", a skeptic says. "I've got a lot of outlays between now and the New Year, what with Christmas coming up. How will staying in the Now help me pay my bills next month? Business has been slow lately and I'm afraid I'm just not going to manage."

Well, if you'll notice, that person's fear is based on a future event that may or may not eventuate. The skeptic has just projected an outcome ahead of himself that he's going to be broke. But it's not his actual reality in the present is it? So the first thing he can do is bring himself back to the Now where he has the power of choice. And if he keeps bringing himself back to Now every moment between now and that future possibility, he may well find that when the new year does come, he won't be broke at all.

Why? Because if he listens to his little inner voice, which he can only hear in the Now, he'll probably hear it asking him if he really needs to spend those extra dollars on the flashing reindeer antlers for everyone on Christmas day. When he goes to buy his booze for the New Year's Eve party, he may opt for one case of beer instead of two, realising that he'll probably be too plastered to open the pull rings after 24 cans anyway. And instead of shutting the door of his antique store at 5pm on the dot in the face of the little old lady who obviously wants to buy something, he'll take a deep breath, smile at her and graciously let her enter. For all he knows, she might just want to buy that wooden Indian elephant lampstand with the silk tassels he's been trying to get rid of for two years.

"But I feel so AWFUL at the moment," another soul cries. "I had an argument with my boyfriend last week, and I haven't been able to face him since. I just keep thinking of what he said, and what I said, and what we could have said, and what he'll say if I speak to him now. I'm miserable and I've got a headache."

I'm not surprised. Can you see what's happening here? Our young friend is spending all of her waking (and probably sleeping) thoughts rehashing an argument that happened days ago. She can't change what was said. And the first thing she needs to do is to accept that, then let it go. If she can come to the Now, and accept her situation for what it is NOW, that's her first step to a resolution. At first she may feel angry, resentful or hurt as she allows herself to accept her present reality. One of the reasons for replaying the past like a stuck record is not wanting to feel the emotions brought about by the result of our actions. She may feel guilty for saying what she did. She may have over-reacted to the situation at the time and now feels stupid when she acknowledges what she must have looked like to her boyfriend. She probably thinks he's judging her as she would if she were in his shoes. But he actually may not be.

However, she won't find out what he's thinking by trying to second guess him from some past event. If she brings her focus back to the Now, her inner guidance may tell her firstly to forgive herself for being such a dork, but that's what being human's all about. Making mistakes and learning from them. That's how she will mature. By looking at and accepting herself and her actions. And if she doesn't like what she sees, making a resolve in the Now to act differently in the future (which will be the Now when she gets there). Her little inner voice might then tell her to give him a ring and apologise. "What!" I hear her shriek. "And lose face?" If she felt she did something hurtful, then it truly will make her feel better to apologise. If she genuinely thinks it was all his fault, maybe a phone call to ask him if everything's been okay with him might be the answer. Let's face it, guys aren't always the first to tell women what they're feeling. A lot of the time, they simply don't know. But he may have resolved some issue himself and be in a better frame of mind now. In which case, he's probably waiting for her to call him when she's stopped being angry at him. Guys generally avoid conflict with girls. Which isn't a bad tactic.

Apart from our little inner voice being present in the Now, there is the One Thing that will heal all hurts and bring true joy. And that's the Godforce, Higher Self, Void, Christ, Holy Spirit. It's name doesn't matter. The truth however is that It is present - always. And it is Love. And this Love is the gentlest, most fragrant healing balm ever known. It encourages us to partake of Its essence, to let it in. And as we do, we can feel the hurt, anger and suffering melt away as we let the tears of past grief roll down our cheeks. I know this sounds soppy and sentimental, but every time I've got into a pit of despair and allowed myself to let the Godforce in, this is what I've experienced. This is Truth. And It's always present in the Now. We just have to sit with ourselves and we will feel It. By accepting ourselves and all that makes us up - our emotions, our thoughts - we somehow go beyond all of the pain and find ourselves in this wonderful reality that is our true home.

It's only our mind that keeps us separate from this Loving reality. The subconscious stores old hurts that prevent us from relaxing into Love, and the conscious puts up walls of judgement that prevent us from touching Love.

By staying in the Now, by accepting the past hurt, letting go of the judgements, and fully accepting the present, we will find true Bliss. Our bills will be paid, and our relationships will be in order. And when we have found this reality for ourselves, we will want to share it with others and show them the way.

And once enough of us are living in Reality and reaching out to others, there will be a split second shift, and we will all Come Home. And I will see you there.

Copyright © 2006 Aannsha Jones